"The Anti-Social", "Faux genius", and "Topic Of Conversation --This is a merge of three posts that don't deserve to be on their own
As weird as this may sound, I do not like to be the center of attention. I am very freaking shy. I have never really learned to act around people. I have never learned to act around girls. I don't like the spotlight. It takes time for me to be comfortable around people. This explains why I like to sit in the back of the room of all my classes. Until now I thought I had succeeded in keeping a low profile. This doesn't prevent me from answering questions in class --in fact I am known to answer most of the questions in my government class. The thing is when I do, I get into a roll, and I really don't know when to stop. I hate when I do that because I always end up looking like an idiot. It's not that I am a super-genius that knows everything, it is just that I remember stuff that I've been taught (or taught myself) before.
I've been called "gifted" by my third grade teacher, "smarth buth verry layzee" by my eight grade English teacher (she was Russian), and other things by my other teachers that echoed something along the lines of "bright". This has really sucked for me because I always end up disappointing my teachers by scoring an 80 on the IQ test, and a 1060 on the SAT. Most of my academic life I've been trying to avoid all the "bright" echoes but somehow I always fail.
Today I was told that some of my teachers had a conversation about me. While this feeds my hungry ego it also feels somewhat weird. I'm sure there were echoes about "brightness" and probably of "self-sabotage." I'm sure it was probably nothing out of the ordinary. I have been told by my inside sources (his/her name rhymes with Anber Villis) that teachers like to talk about their students when they aren't gossiping about other teachers. I just don't like to be the center of attention.