Goodbye 2022

I no longer write anymore

Hello. It's been a while. I have realized that I no longer write much in my life. At least not creatively. I guess it's the curse of getting older or whatever. I used to write more, but I think I've entered the stage of life in which I realize how very little it all sorta matters. Nobody fucking cares. As it should be. I barely care myself to be honest, and I have main character syndrome. I guess an update is warranted? Eh, here it goes. I have lost contact with everybody. A cursory like on Instagram does not a friendship make. I do miss certain people, but it is what it is. That's life, I guess. Emotionally I'm actually in a better place right now. Always a work in progress of course. I'm currently drinking the 4-pack of Allagash Curieux I bought more than a month ago. First time I've drank in a while. It's probably why I feel like writing. I'm gonna see Bright Eyes again on Thursday. Impulse ticket purchase. I'm not sure if I'm ready to dive into my pool of lifetime sadness, but fuck it. It doesn't sound like Conor Oberst has been in a good state of mind recently as he bailed after two songs a few weeks ago during their show in Houston. Worst case scenerio we get a story, best case scenerio we get a nostalgia trip. I remember back in 2005 when I first saw them in Santa Barbara worrying about Conor throwing a fit during the show and walking out. He already had a reputation back then. 2005... holy shit. It's about to be 15 years. The world feels like it spins faster and faster the older I get. My coworker said I might have ADHD. I looked up the symptoms and LMAO do they fit. Maybe all of my childhood failures can be defined by a neurodevelopment disorder? Maybe I'm making excuses? Maybe it's Maybelline?? Sofi Stadium was officially announced as a venue for the 2026 World Cup. I hope I can make it til then. I need to go to a game. I need to take my dad. It's going to be expensive, but that's what Credit Cards are for. Yay! Oh yeah, we're still in a Global Pandemic, even if the dumb motherfuckers that make up my fellow societymembers want to act like it's over. I've been listening to a lot of metal lately. Indie rock is pretty much moribund. It's basically a constant stream of Tik-tok ready genreless bullshit. The Zoomers eat that shit up. The kids don't like guitars anymore. (/boomer, get off my lawn) I think this is enough for now. My 2022 update is done. Please excuse any typos as I'm pretty fucked up right now and I'm also using Blogger's editor which doesn't have a fucking goddamn spell checker.

RIP Taylor Hawkins