Summer 2008 - Trail-thought Recap

Well the best season of the year is over and boy what a summer it was. I started of with a bang by quitting the depot and then proceeded to do absolutely nothing for the rest of the season --work wise that is. I turned 21 on July 24th and can now be a legal alcoholic if I wish it so. Honestly I haven't drank much since my birthday. A few beers and a couple of bottles of wine here and there. Drinking looses a lot of its coolness once you can go to your local Vons and buy it without any problems. Summer had been a pretty empty season when it came to concerts until my birthday when I saw Tokyo Police Club for free. They have so much energy on stage. Their songs are like short barrages of indie-rockish/slightly emo ammunition. The crowd was so young and I've never felt so old in my life before. Two weeks after that I caught Conor Oberst's free in-store performance at Amoeba. He never fails to satisfy. His new solo record moves him closer to being full-fledged Country Rock. The big show of this year for me was Radiohead. Yes, I fucking-finally saw Radiohead. Twice. For the second show I was about ten yards away from the stage in front of Johnny Greenwood. It was the most awe-aspiring moment of my worthless life. There they were, the five guys who created the soundtrack to my happiness and misery. Right there. Musically they are so tight live. Everything on cue. The light show was spectacular. They covered Neil Young's "Tell Me Why" on Monday. It was the only time this tour. I can now say I was there during one of their infamous moments. Sunday's show was awesome too, but Monday was 1000% better. True Love Waits into Everything In Its Right Place... i almost lost my shit. I'm going through a post concert obsession/depression. I'm listening to the bootlegs a lot (in fact im listening right now). Emotionally I've been ok. No summer depression this year? It's still there, I have just managed to not let it take over me. I don't think that's ever going away. School starts tomorrow. Last chance. Take it, there is no leave it. It's kinda weird going back after so long, knowing everyone is so much younger than me. I'll get over it. Regrets? Two. One: I told myself not to do something yet I did it anyway. Two: Took out my anger and frustration out on someone I shouldn't have. Sometimes I feel like apologizing but my pride gets in the way. I don't want to seem like i'm begging to be accepted. I miss having something to do. I hate waking up and realizing theres nothing planned. I hate being indoors. I hate waking up late and realizing the mornings gone. I hate feeling lonely. I hate being a failure. (theres the depression. right there! See it!?) It's late. I have to wake up early tomorrow. Fuck off now.