the Monitor (.plan)

I am a failure

When trying to have a conversation with a girl you like in order to get to know her better, you need to make sure the conversation stays lively and informative. For example this past Sunday I had the opportunity to go to lunch with a girl I kinda have a thing for and while I was twirling around with her Ipod (looking at a collection ranging from Missy Elliot to Manu Chao) this happened:

Her: "So What kind of music do you listen to?"
Me: "Oh, you know... Rock and stuff..." (Silence)

I failed miserably. I could hear myself deliver that line as the casket closed on the conversation. There is nothing I can babble about more than my music. That is my subject. I could have gone into detail on how I have barely discovered Manu Chao, how I like Interpol too, how an airbag saved my life (Radiohead reference alert) but I didn't. I said "Rock and stuff." I could have shared the fact that before I found Rage Against the Machine I used to listen to Hip Hop and how I still like NWA, Tupac, Public Enemy, Black Star and Cypress Hill but I did not. I could have shared the fact that I still listen to Korn once in a while, how if it weren't for the Foo Fighters I would be a metal head today, or how I would much rather listen to Morrissey than the Cure, but I did not. There was so much to be said from both sides of the conversation but thanks to me nothing was shared. I basically ruined whatever chance I could have had and I deserve it for being such a "Panicky Pete" (Jim Norton).

I failed in life once again.